Dance With the Devil

I'm finally happy. How are you?

I can't do it. I want to be nice and supportive, but even thinking about makes me sick. Makes my stomach churn to the point of vomiting. I should just be rid of it altogether, but who knows. Maybe something absolutely in my favor will happen. Heh, it's too early in the evening to be an optimistic cynic. I'm tired as shit and proud that I finally did my damn US History homework.

Okay, whatever. Time for bed. Peace, be still..... bitches

Woo! Band techie work is a perfect way to get your mind off your troubles... unless your troubles are in band.. but what else do you expect?

Gavee hit JP in the face and he got a nosebleed XD
Starbucks made my weekend!
Cuddled Kacey all the way to Odessa
'Killed' Lauren, first try XD
Sang at the football game!
Laughed at Martini trying to get the cop to flex XD
JP's Chuck Norris impression
Headbanged
Headbanged
Headbanged
JP's neck popped
Headbanged
Headbanged
Headbanged
JP got whiplash
Truth or Dare was not fun!
But cuddling the sleeping Kacey was
Daddy parked next to her ><
Slept till 2:30 like I said I would
Band show
Only wanted crit ;-; wah
Got Heather twice XD I'm good at those comebacks now :D!
And now I'm home. Enjoying the night. The Island is an awesome movie. :3

*gasps* I just had the best idea for a book like that! I'll write that for my NaNo! Wheee!

I totally got distracted and ended up writing in my MySpace XD

*~*In order to see the rainbow, one must endure the rain*~*

PS: Check out my DA! I'm so kewl! http://darkimmersion.deviantart.com

( The Random Question Meme! )

Last night was sweet XD
Tonight was pretty awesome too XD
What's more fun than Mentos, Diet Coke, and fondling your guy friend's girlfriend?

....nothing....

:D

Fill It Out For Me :3 <333 I Wuv You Guyz

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
2. Whats your philosophy on life?
3. Would you have my back in a fight?
4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
5. What is your favorite memory of us?
6. Would you give me a kidney?
7. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
9. Can we get together and make a cake?
10. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?
11. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?
12. Do you think I'm a good person?
13. Would you drive across country with me?
14. Do you think I'm attractive?
15. If you could change anything about me, would you?
16. What do you wear to sleep?
17. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
18. Would you go on a date with me if i asked you?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Will you repost this so i can fill it out for you?

Lauren: *whispers* Tell him you like them!
Me: *whispers* *with big eyes* but... I'm not good at lying!

Today was alright. Not all bad. :3 Maybe tomorrow will be even better <3

My tummeh hurts and I need a new hobby.

...

HOUSE-WAHMING PRESAHNT! *lmaokappamikeygodhelpme*

So, Steve Irwin is dead. Any faith I had in the world is gone. At least he wasn't murdered, then I'd have to take kill some people. But... DAMN.

Four days till my birthday. James is in town. And..

my stomach's gone to shit.

Well, it hasn't really, but it feels that way. I don't feel good. Not good at all. And I'm not sure why.

I'm bored...

*falls over* Really bored...

That was the wrooong conversation to have today. WRONG. WRONG. WRONG. I was doing just fine the way it was before and now... damn! Why couldn't they have told me something else? Something other than what fit?!

GRAWR

Well, anyways. Whatever.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v302/delusional_smirk/814fc625.jpg

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v302/delusional_smirk/S4300021-1.jpg

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Who's that sexy thing? FTW~<3

I felt particularly ugly today. Like I don't want to be in my own skin. No, not 'like'. I DON'T want to be in my own skin today. I'd rather be that person, her, him, them as a whole. Just not me...

Maybe it's that time again and I'm just overreacting.


But the angst-tastic air around me just bears down more everyday. Maybe by semester I'll be over this.

OH! BIG ANNOUNCEMENT! Anyone who knows me and Caitlin (West), please find Caitlin and tell her you want to donate to the 'Tarra really fucking needs an iPod' fund!

I really fucking want an iPod ;-;

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well FUCK that.

I've never felt so maniacal and vengeful and cynical before in my life.

I've also never felt so jealous and greedy before. D:

Although I don't enjoy being jealous and greedy, shit happens and it makes me like that. Hopefully I'll get over it or that old adage will stand true.

Oh well, whatever...

Four Things you may not have known about me:

A) Four jobs I had in my life:
1) pseudo-worker @ Fantasy World
2) Pen packager person thingie...
3)
4)

B) Four Movies I would watch over and over:
1) National Treasures
2) The Incredibles
3) FFVII: Advent Children
4) uh...

C) Four Places I have lived:
1) Omaha, Nebraska
2) Abilene, Texas
3)
4)


D) Four current TV shows I love to watch:
1) Spiral
2) Cheaters
3) Cinematech
4) X-Play

E) Four retired TV shows that I loved to watch:
1) South of Nowhere
2) Angry Beavers
3)
4) Futurama

F) Four Places I have been on vacation:
1) San Fransico
2) Davao, Phillipines
3) Dallas
4) Phoenix, AZ

G) Four websites I visit often:
1) Google
2) Livejournal
3) Dark Hunters Anonymous
4) GaiaOnline

H) Four of my favorite foods:
1) Most anything my mom cooks
2) Chicken fried steak
3) Fried chicken
4) Cheescake

I) Four places that I would rather be right now:
1) Somewhere more enjoyable
2) Somewhere I am enjoyed
3) With someone that cares
4) In my imagination (keeping Sue's answer)

J) Four friends I think will respond:
1) I honestly don't know. Do it if you want :P
2)
3)
4)

Heh. Well, with the end of summer coming and all that I suppose it's time too look at my summer in review.

...

Yup, that was about it.

But so far the new year holds plenty of promise. No pre-fiscal year drama, no schedule screw ups. It's all good. I'm quite content right now. :3

But that doesn't make for a very interesting entry, does it? Ah, well. I'm not an interesting person so I won't try and jazz this up any.

kthnxbai<3

-Current relationship status:
Single X3

-Longest you ever had feelings for someone:
Rounding about three years now and I hope it doesn't end the way the last one did.

-Shortest relationship:
2 weeks?

-How many people have you broken up with?
1

-How many people have broken up with you?
Don't make me count

-Are you in love?
god I hope not

-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you said I love you to?
3

-Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with?
Didn't think I was going to, but I did imagine what it would be like.

-Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
*sighs* Yup.

-Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
Hahaha. As if.

-Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend?
Yeah...

-Are you happier single or in a relationship?
I don't really know

-Have you ever been cheated on?
Yeah

-What is your favorite thing about the person you have feelings for?
intelligence... looks...

-What makes you melt?
Tossing me into a fiery hot inferno? Heh

-What is the best part of being in a relationship?
Having someone to cuddle with, feeling wanted

-What is the worst part of being in a relationship?
finding out the whole damn thing was a lie. more than once

-Worst relationship?
I plead the fifth

-Are you a romantic?
hopelessly

-Have you ever had your heart broken?
Several times, once recently

-Have you ever broken someones heart?
Ahahahaha no

-Do you talk to any of your exes?
nope

-If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your exes, would you?
nah, I like how it is

-Do you think any of your exes feel the same way?
sure don't

-Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
I wouldn't know.

-Have you dated people who were not good to you?
*shrugs* ask my advisors

-Have you been in an abusive relationship?
No

-Have you ever had sexual fantasies about one of your exes?
Heh.

-Have you dated someone older then you?
just once.

-Younger?
yup, twice

-What is one thing that all of your exes had in common?
They don't/won't live here anymore.

-Have u ever done anything sexual with your girlfriend/boyfriend in front of your parents?
heh, no

-Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over a boyfriend or girlfriend?
unfortunately

-Have you ever cried for more then 3 hours about a boyfriend or girlfriend?
hmmm... maybe once...... for a straight three hours? not straight through, maybe collectively.

-When is the last time that you were in a relationship?
...

-Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
I'm gonna keep Katie's answer here...
"depends what the first violation is."

-Believe in love at first sight?
Yeah actually. I think I should shoot that mentality soon

-Ever dated two people at once?
hehehe, if I only ever found anyone(s)willing XD

-Whats the perfect date?
As if I know

-Ever been given a promise ring?
nope

-Do you want to get married?
I'm too young to be thinking about that.

-Do you have something to say to any of your exs?
*sigh*

-Ever stolen someones boyfriend or girlfriend?
nope

-Ever liked someone elses boyfriend or girlfriend?
nope

-Do you believe in true love?
I've had that debate in my head before. While I do find it as a possibility, I don't truely believe that I'm going to find it. I think I deserve to, as all others do,... But I really doubt I'll actually find someone. A lot of friends disagree w/ that, and I'm glad they're so supportive of me and my actions and reactions... But I just feel like it won't be mine, in a manner of speaking

-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
And so much worse...

-Do you think that you will/or have found the love of your life?
I don't think I have yet, or if I have, there are boundaries that would have to be broken. As far as whether or not I will,... Again, I do want it some day. I do want to love and be loved wholly as a full circle. But glancing into my own future,... I wish I could see it. I just can't right now. I don't think I ever will find that, tragically. And the search for it may some day be my own demise. Of course this coming from a still-shattered heart... So, as much as I hope, I might very well be wrong on that. And believe me, I hope I am wrong...

So, after being taken around the town, I bought shoes. Joyous me, shoes. I've been suddenly flooded with unwanted emotions the cause of which I will not delve into. Okay, well. Yeah, just thought I'd update.

Yes, folks, it's that time again. Time to fork around with my livejournal until the new theme sets in and works.

What's my theme this time? Dark-Hunters, Were-hunters, Dream-hunters oh my!

Awesome book series, gorgeous pictures on the website... so I suppose I shall revamp my lj to express my love, since my desktop is already starting to look like it.

The Devil Wears Prada looks like a good chick flick. I haven't gone to a good chick flick lately. Who wants to go to a good chick flick?

Lady in the Water looks good too. 'Course, I'm partial to wolves. *eeeehwolves* Then again, I haven't liked anything i've seen by M. Night Shamylan so it might actually suck.

Dammit, I just want to get out of the house now.

Okay, now. About today. Today was kewl. The weather was great, the company exquisite, and I feel so good inside. All is right with my world tonight.

My tummy is a lil' achey though. Maybe cause I hardly had anything to eat today. *weep*

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Thoughts from today-

'Last time I went to a mini-golf place, I purposely knocked every ball out because I had no comprehension of the mini-golf concept.'

''Course, I was eight and hated golf in any fashion, anyways.'

'Mmmm... OMFG There's cheesecake in here!'

'My shirt ;-;'

'Who in the hell trips over pants that barely go past their knees? Oh wait.. I DO.'



Daniel's 'Pre-Party'



'Ah, everyone's working so hard' :3



'James, get back to work!'

( Balloons + Dr. Pepper=... )